Test Results

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Today, I went to the doctor to hear the results of my blood tests.
I am still trying to sort the different feelings that ran through me as I listened to him explain what he had discovered:

A feeling of finally knowing I hadn't imagined that something was wrong with me. A feeling of fear that too much damage has been done to my body and may not be repairable. A feeling of panic that I always get when I have to have surgery.

Even when I am unconscious during surgery, my blood pressure sky rockets. Before I was ever diagnosed with high blood pressure I had a problem. I almost died during my last surgery because the doctors had trouble getting my blood pressure down. This time my blood pressure will be high before going into surgery.

This morning my blood pressure was 170/108 when the nurse took it at the doctor's office. She asked me if I was nervous. I told her I had been upset since the doctor had called me to come in and talk with him. I wasn't able to sleep at all last night. I have hypertension blood pressure and the least about of upset or stress causes it to jump high. The doctor changed one of my prescriptions because my blood pressure went up even more while I was still there.

The doctor told me I have hyperparathyroidism. I was amazed at the symptoms. It was like reading what I have been saying out loud for so many years.

I have to see a specialist, an endocrinologist. My doctor told me it would cost $250 just to walk through the door. So, I have to go to the charity clinic; the place I was trying to avoid. My doctor says I will have to have surgery to remove the gland. I hope the specialist has an alternate treatment.

One thing is that now I know why I have not felt like myself for a long time and I am finally on the road to recovery. Thank you God for loving me.

Hear my prayer, O Lord, and give ear unto my cry; hold not thy peace at my tears: for I am a stranger with thee, and a sojourner, as all my fathers were. O spare me, that I may recover strength, before I go hence, and be no more. Psalms 39:12-13