K has lost around thirty pounds. Since he won't talk about his diagnosis, I don't know if the reason is emotional or physical. His eating habits changed in March when he first started experiencing pain in his side. He says he fills full with a smaller amount of food now. With us still not getting much information from the doctors, it upsets me.

I am at odds because I don't know if I should show extra concern or be as abnoxious as my normal self; if you understand what I mean. Since K is showing a front of everything is the same, is this what I should do too? I want to scoop him up and shower him with loads of tender loving care; but......that is not what I normally do and he would know the difference. Yes, I do take care of him but I want to do much much more but I don't want to be that obvious.

Went outside to walk and there was one of the snakes staring up at me. I had reached the point where I was comfortable not watching where I was stepping and almost put my foot on it. Ugh!!! I tried to keep walking but I was so scared I turned around and made a wide detour around the snake and went back inside. I was afraid I would encounter the other two snakes like I used to do. It is a little much when I have all three of them around me.

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Out of the depths have I cried unto thee, O Lord. Lord, hear my voice: let thine ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications. If thou, Lord, shouldest mark iniquities, O Lord, who shall stand? But there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayest be feared. I wait for the Lord, my soul doth wait, and in his work do I hope. Psalms 130:1-5