We went this morning for K's ct scan. The doctor called around 11:30 and said the word that I have been dreading. Cancer. In my heart I knew. But the doctor didn't say it until today. He has made an appointment for a biopsy this coming monday. The doctor said sometimes infection causes enlarged lymph nodes but he could tell that is not what he saw in the scan.

My world has shifted again. I felt like I was getting back on track. Now I have something else I have to come to grips with. My strength left and pain filled me. I am scared; of what exactly, I don't really know. K being sick and in pain, losing him, not wanting him to worry over the financial situation-all these things have went through my mind. I have put them in God's hands and now I need to let them go.

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He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:29-31