I went to wallyworld today to try and find some food that will entice me to eat again. My dietitian tells me I need to eat more because my blood glucose is staying too low. I don't like to eat for some reason. I hardly think about eating or drinking. Sometimes I get to thinking about certain foods I have eaten or cooked and think maybe I will eat that. So I cook it or go buy it, but I take a couple of bites and I don't want any more of it.

I am suppose to be keeping a journal of every thing I eat and drink during the day. Today's entry has this written:


7 a.m.- 2-6 oz cups of decaf coffee

9 a.m.- 3/4 cup of bite-size shredded wheat with 1/2 cup of 2% milk

10 a.m.- 2 blood pressure pills, 1 heart rate pill, 1 anxiety
pill, 1 calcium supplement, 1 low dose aspirin, 1
vitamin C, 2 vitamin E, 1 evening oil of primrose and 8 oz of
water

12:30 p.m.- 1 mini-snack size box of raisins

3:30 p.m.- granola bar

4:30 p.m.- 8 oz cup green tea



So far that is it for today. I don't think about eating or drinking. I rarely get hungry. If my stomach does growl in anger because it is empty I usually get a glass of decaf diet coke or water. Not food, ugh!!!

I bought some salad makings at the store in hopes I will eat them. But I had to throw out what I brought home a couple of weeks ago. I would open the crisper drawer of the 'frig and close it right back because the thought of eating a salad made me nauseous. I threw out some apples and oranges I had bought and didn't eat. The foods I was eating last year don't interest me and I have yet to find something that I will eat besides sugar free chocolates and granola bars. And I don't eat them often enough.

I am boiling peanuts right now to snack on tonight. K has been asking me to get some peanuts to boil so today I did. The green peanuts are available in the store this time of year so I am boiling about five pounds of them for us. A man in our neighborhood boils and sells peanuts all year long and we usually buy a small bag from him every few weeks. Boiled peanuts are one thing I am crazy about!

I don't enjoy cooking like I used to do. K still isn't eating much and really doesn't ask me to fix him any thing special. If he does I do cook it for him. But he never did like to eat the same things I did and I used to try new recipes just for myself.

I am still not doing any of things I did a few years ago. Sometimes when evening rolls around I wonder what I did all day long because time seems to have went by so fast that the day just slipped away and I can't think of any thing I accomplished. Oh, I do the dishes, and the laundry, and a few other household chores but it shouldn't take a whole day. I am so glad that I at least get out of the house and go to the daycare to work. Otherwise I don't think I would leave the house at all.