It has been a dreary day; no sun peeking through the rain clouds.

My mother-in-law came over to get me to make some copies of her rental lease. She couldn't find the ones that I had made her right before I had my surgery. It struck me again how fast the year has passed.

When she called and said she was coming over my stomach clinched. I had a feeling something was going to happen; since it is close to christmas. Sure enough she hadn't been here long before she told me that she wasn't going to be able to buy gifts this year. Well, I knew what that meant because I had heard it before. As she was leaving she told me she would come get me one day next week and we would go christmas shopping together.

Yep, the old "not going to give gifts; let's go buy gifts" speech. I guess I am suppose to be that stupid. The speech means that she isn't going to give me and mine gifts but there are family members and friends that will get christmas presents. She is low on funds; she has to scratch people off her list so she has more cash to impress the important people. Oh well, it is not the first time.

Tomorrow is the first day of december. We are counting down to the year 2005. I remember standing on the steps of school during my senior year wondering what I would be doing in the year 2000. It was hard for me to picture myself that far ahead but I didn't think I would be in the disorderly life I'm in now.