Tomorrow morning is my weekly visit to the psychologist. My homework was to add to the list of pleasant activities we started during my last visit. I told her everything that at one time I had enjoyed doing but she felt that I needed to add other things. But all I had really enjoyed doing was reading, crocheting, sewing, birdwatching, gardening, walking, cooking, watching movies, traveling, and blogging. Well, let's say that is all I have done for most of my life; except for blogging, that is a new one. She has suggested that I think of things that gave me pleasure when I was younger. I need to find things that I can do that will help restore my happiness. And I need to do at least one thing every day that will make me feel good about myself.

I did not realize how hard that is to do. While I was on my trip, I felt good every day. (Except I refused to be in any pictures that were taken.) Since I have been home, I have become a couch potato again. I force myself to get up and do things and I end up sitting down again. I do my walking, I force myself to eat something, and I make my bread. The other activities are hard to get done. I am still crocheting on the afghan, but very little. Most of the time it is just laying on my lap. I have bought books and I do read but it doesn't hold my attention as long as it used to do. I have no desire to cook anymore. K eats a lot of sandwiches or take-out.

She said to force myself; that is easier said than done.

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Thus saith the Lord, thy Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel; I am the Lord thy God which teacheth thee to profit, which leadeth thee by the way that thou shouldest go. O that thou hadst hearkened to my commandments! then had thy peace been as a river and thy righteousness as the waves of the sea: There is no peace, saith the Lord, unto the wicked.
Isaiah 48:17-18, 22