I only had two babies to take care of today. I was able to hold and rock each one. I played peekaboo and made them laugh. It was an enjoyable four hours. I have thought about keeping a couple of babies in my home but I want to be out of the house and around people. I have decided to put my name on the bulletin board at work and babysit at night as a way to earn more money.

I think the primrose oil is working. For five mornings in a row, I have not had to wash my hair because of sweating all night. No more night sweats, yea!!!!!!!! The hot flashes during the day are slowing down too. Something is working and that is the newest thing I have been taking. Nothing else has changed. Outside, the heat index stays in the hundreds and inside the thermostat for the central air is still on the same temperature. I am counting it as a blessing for now.

At my last doctor's appointment, they lowered my calcium supplement to 1000 mgs. a day. Now I am having stronger tremors at night, especially when I am very tired. I told the doctor that they hadn't stopped completely. If it continues I will have increase my calcium on my own, I guess. This doctor told me that a person's body can absorb only so much at a time, and basically I was wasting my money because I was taking more than my body was using. Okay, what about my shakiness? When is it going to stop? Will it ever stop? I was told I have tremors because my body was needing calcium; now they are saying my body does not need it. I feel like they don't believe what I am saying.