It has been awhile since I did any blogging. I want to say it is because I don't really have any thoughts to write about, but that is not the reason. What it amounts to is that I don't want to walk all the way to the back room to the computer. Possibly it is a combination of laziness and tiredness. When I do make the effort; I sit in front of the monitor and I can't put my thoughts into words. They are a jumbled mess so I sit and play freecell instead of blogging.

I am getting forty hours a week now. It is still the split shift schedule though. I work 8-12; I am off 12-2, then I work 2-6. At least now with daylight savings I will be getting home from work with some sun light left in the day.

Friday a coworker ask me how I was doing; she told me I looked very tired. I told her it was Friday, and I am always worn out by the time the weekend rolls around. I have been thinking about what she said and I realize that I do feel more tired than usual. Working at a day care is really not what I consider a physically demanding job. I don't know why I should be that tired considering I get a two hour break between shifts.

I feel I am doing better emotionally. There are still times when a feeling or memory will overtake me and I cry. I find that now I can smile with the memories more often than I cry.

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Seek ye the Lord while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the Lord, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:6-9