November has come and gone; what happened to the days, I do not know. Thanksgiving was a restful peaceful time for me and for that I give thanks.

I have the feeling that I am in the calm before the storm. The clouds are beginning to gather around me and the sun is starting to eclipse. A heaviness is in my soul.

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Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Isaiah 41:10

The holidays are here and I am still unprepared. Happy Thanksgiving ya'll!!!

Yesterday morning K and I went to the health unit and received our flu shots. I don't know if it is a coincidence but I am sick as a snake bit dog. I thought I was going to have to leave work early last night but I hung in and finished my four hours. I am sipping on ginger ale that thankfully I bought a couple of weeks ago to have on hand for just such an occasion.

I don't know where the time goes; I don't do anything; night time comes so quickly. I can't ever seem to accomplish what I set out to do each day. Well, I guess what I mean, I don't do house hold chores because I am always doing things I enjoy like reading and crocheting instead of necessary stuff. I tell myself I'm not going to sit down with a book or yarn in my hands or play freecell and that is exactly what I do all morning and before I know it, it is time to get ready for work. Then when I come home from work I am trying to catch up with what I didn't do that morning. I have become an awful lacksadaisy.

Today, I am not cooking. Our thanksgiving feast is being given to us by several friends. It will be all kinds of different foods to taste. I still don't want any food though. My stomach is still whirling.

K's legs are starting to give out on him. I don't know how much longer he will be able to walk any distance. Several people have talked with K about getting a lawyer to get his disability approved so there won't be a waiting period and K won't feel the need to keep working because we have to have enough money to pay bills while we wait for his application to be approved. Life is a vicious circle.

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Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made know unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7

Time is passing by so fast. It is hard to believe it is November 10th already.

I have been doing a lot of driving around, filling out applications, to try and get help with K's prescriptions. We have two of them taken care of, thank you God. Now I have three more to try and get help with.

I finished the poncho and I'm almost through with another one. I tried to take a picture but my camera has died. New batteries didn't revive it. I must say again, I am enjoying the feel of the hook and yarn in my hands. It is wonderful!

K is hanging in there and almost appears to be his old self. There is a lot of things he can not do because he doesn't have the strength any more. When that happens the light leaves his eyes and I want to take the cancer into myself and put back the joy for life in K's eyes that he has always had. It is hard watching him get weaker but still trying to follow his normal routine. It happens, we do forget about the cancer. We are discussing filing for disability once again. He doesn't think he will be able to work much longer. We are just going day by day.

My bread is selling as fast as I can make it. Most of the time I am so tired, I hate to even think about baking bread. It is extra money and I force myself to do it. I did remember to save some mayonnaise jars and I will be putting together the cookie mix in a jar to sell around christmas time. I did real good with that a few years ago when it was a fad. I hope it does as good this year. Every little bit helps.

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But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:19