I only cried one day this week. I had worried that it would be more; but I knew I had to be strong so I could go to work. Thank you God for comforting me. It is hard to believe a year has gone by since my husband died. He is still so close to me and constantly in my thoughts. I thought I saw him at the gas station where I stopped to buy gas. The man looked so much like him, he could have been a twin and he was standing by a black truck like K's and was actually wearing a jacket like K wore. My heart flip flopped a few times while I reminded myself it couldn't possibly be him.

I have been getting scared more than usual at night ever since I found out that someone has been siphoning gas from my car. It seems I hear more noises. I guess I am listening more than I did before. I tried leaving the radio on but then I thought about not being able to hear a noise that I might need to hear. I know that sounds goofy but that's me; I get silly ideas sometimes.

I am so glad the weekend is here again. Finally a little peace and quiet and especially no alarm clock ringing in the morning. That is the highlight of my weekends.

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For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13

The month of december is upon us. Twenty four days are left of this year. I can't believe a whole year has passed. It sure doesn't feel like it. K has been gone a year and I still wait for him to walk back through the door.

This winter I already have chilblains on my toes. They are so painful. I have been doing everything that I did last winter to prevent them; I don't know what has went wrong.

I still haven't brought out my christmas decorations. I have set out some of the snow men from my collection. I need to decorate my classroom at work but I don't have the desire or the energy. It is tempting to buy new christmas things instead of dragging all my boxes out and sorting through them. I still might purchase a few items for the classroom before christmas and just box them up in january and then add them to my stack of boxes.

This week someone siphoned gas from my gas tank. I found out that I am not the only one that has had gas stolen. I bought a gas cap that locks but the sales man told me that it can be pried off with a screw driver. Right now it is all I can think to do; I can't be buying gas for someone else to use. Also it bothers me to know that someone is in my yard after dark; close to my house, to my front door, with stealing on their mind.

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In the, O Lord, do I put my trust; let me never be put to confusion. Deliver me in thy righteousness, and cause me to escape; incline thine ear unto me, and save me.
Psalms 71:1-2