He Is Faithful That Promised

Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;) Hebrew 10:23

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Low-carbing it



Two months ago K. and I joined the craze of eating low-carb foods. He had noticed three people losing a lot of weight and out of curiosity asked them how they were accomplishing the weight loss. All three were on a low-carb diet. K. told me about it and since this was the first time in over twenty years that he wanted to diet, I said, let's do it.

I went online and searched for low-carb diet plans and let me tell you the internet highway is full of low-carb sites. What I decided after all the reading is that the "basic" low-carb diet is mainly bitter green veggies, turkey and water. You can not have anything white except cauliflower and no form of sugar. You eat all you want of turkey and green vegetables; they have 0 carbs. Pig skins are the allowed crunchy snack unless you want more veggies; they have 0 carbs. You can eat all you want of these three food groups as long as you drink 64 ounces of water daily plus another 8 ounces for every 25 pounds of weight you want to lose. So you stay on the toilet as all you consumed goes right out of you, ergo, their goes your weight!

For both of us, the hardest part was all that water. Normally, K. doesn't drink water. I drink water, I love water, but I couldn't drink that much water. I don't drink 64 ounces of any kind of liquid in one day. K. doesn't like vegetables; especially the green leafy kind, but he did try. I love all veggies so I handled that part very well. K. doesn't like turkey so we decided to eat different meats as most meats are 0 carbs. Now for the pig skins; they were a little dry but I washed them down with some of that water I had to drink. K. didn't go for them neither. He was running out of low-carb options. After a few days I was in hog's heaven with the pig skins. They became the one thing that helped me make it through the day. I really didn't get hungry; but my taste buds were getting very unhappy.

K. went back to drinking cokes and wanting dessert after supper. Eventually he started asking for mashed potatoes and gravy and told me to keep the vegetables off his plate. I stayed with the low-carb eating and began to feel sluggish. In the beginning I lost inches in my waist and felt great. I was telling everyone about the low-carb diet; making copies of the diet plan and handing them out. The initial weight loss was awesome. You can lose 10 lbs. or more the first two weeks. Then I began hearing things that were not great about the plan. I heard that people, like me, with high blood pressure should not be on this diet. Meat may be 0 carbs but it is high in fat and cholesterol. Everything except the vegetables that is allowed for low-carb eating, like meat, cheese, eggs, nuts, are high in fat and cholesterol. But the plan evens says that eating low carb can correct high cholesterol.

I was eating low-fat cheese in place of meat for some meals. I was using egg beaters in place of eggs. Also I would add nuts to my salad once in a while for the protein. And the pig skins, I was eating a lot of pig skins daily. Everything was high in fat and cholesterol. I noticed that my clothes were getting tight and I began to feel heavy. I had reached the point of not having the strength to do anything. I thought it was mental exhaustion. One morning I couldn't find any comfortable clothes to put on. I felt swollen. I had to go to the store and buy bigger clothes. I don't have weight scales at home so I weighed at the store. I had gained 8 pounds eating low-carb foods!!! I think it must have been all those pig skins because that is what I ate the most.

I am still eating low carb but I have made a lot of adjustments for my blood pressure and lifestyle. I am a sedentary person although I do exercise a little bit. I am back to counting calories and not eating all I want. I am reading labels again for fat and cholesterol. I have lost a few pounds already but I have a long way to go to get back to the weight I was two months ago. But I am heading in that direction.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Tuesday



Something seems to be wrong with my thinking or my thoughts; I don't know which one. I put myself into God's hands, and tell myself, "okay thats it, forget about what's going on around you, things will work out." Today, I am right back to getting aggravated again.

I want to scream at the top of my lungs, I can't take too much more of living this way! I want my house to look nice. It may be a shack but it can be improved with a little work. I want my yard to look presentable. I can't do it by myself; I have tried. I get so disgusted with the place that I go into a slump of depression that lasts a while.

God has showed me how to make small changes and I have done them. He has finally shown me how to fix an eyesore in my yard that has bothered me for over a year. I thank God for loving me. I need to be more patient and wait upon the Lord.

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Monday, May 24, 2004

Ezekiel 37:11-12



Then He said to me, "Son of man, these bones represent the people of Israel. They are saying, 'We have become old, dry bones-all hope is gone.' Now give them this message from the Sovereign Lord: O my people, I will open your graves of exile and cause you to rise again. Then I will bring you back to the land of Israel." Ezekiel 37:11-12 NLT

I was very forunate to hear the message about scattered bones yesterday. I have been struggling with the feeling of being used up; that my life is over; why try anymore. I have felt that I had lost my relationship with God.

Now I understand better that I had stopped feeding my Spirit. I was allowing my heart to dry up. Oh, I talk to my Comforter all the time. I praise God constantly. But I wasn't making time for Bible study. I had tried to make a daily routine but had neglected to put time aside for God. I feel that is why I have been stumbling along in my daily walk with my Father.

Today, I feel that a heavy load has been lifted. The Devil is steadily knocking me down but God keeps helping me to get back on my feet. Praise His Holy Name!

"I am going to breathe into you and make you live again!...I will put breath into you, and you will come to life..." Ezekiel 37:5-6 NLT

It is strange to realize that you have the knowledge and know all the right answers but that knowledge can slip away one day. All these months I have been confused and lost and unhappy. The answer was inside my head and heart but I seem to have lost the understanding of it. I had allowed worldly things to become too important in my life. It was causing static with my connection to the Lord. I thank God for hearing my cry and reaching out to me once again.

"For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. For by thee I have run through a troop; and by my God have I leaped over a wall." Psalm 18:28-29 KJV

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Author, Author!!




I was going to post a picture of my "lil' bit of texas" but can't put my hands on my digital camera. I can't find it and I always kept it in the same place. It grew legs and walked off I guess. I'll keep looking.

I have my cacti planted and some big rocks scattered amongst them. The windmill turns all the time; I'm thinking about finding a big wind chime to hang on it. Plus I want to find some flowers to plant around the windmill, I would like to have some color on the mound. I have lots of ideas.

I want to mention one of my favorite authors, James Lee Burke. In 1998 I received an autographed copy of Sunset Limited. Immediately I connected with the main character, Dave Robicheaux. To me he is a down to earth hero. I found out that Burke had a series of Robicheaux books and I proceeded to find and read all of them. I began collecting them and I wanted hard back; not paper back. But the books were between 200 to 600 dollars. Most of his books are out of print and hard to find. I began searching for paper backs instead and I only have two more to get. In my collection I have some hard back and some paper back.

On Burke's web site, I found where he offered a tourist map of the city, New Iberia, where he has lived and bases his Dave Robicheaux series. I have always wanted to go there and walk the streets Dave Robicheaux and James Lee Burke walked. I have my copy!!! Now, if I could find someone with transportation that would like to go with me. ...sigh....



Saturday, May 15, 2004

Woe is Me



I haven't been feeling very good physically. My spirit has been up; my body isn't cooperating. At first I blamed my tiredness on our trip. But I haven't improved. I have no energy to do the things I need to do. My world is upside-down. I can't seem to fill my lungs up with air. Last night my ankles were swollen and today they are swollen again. I had my suspicions of the cause and did a search.

I have been on blood pressure medicine since June of last year. The doctors told be that night, I was very fortunate to still be walking. I have not made all the necessary life style changes. The main one was to reduce the stress in my life. I haven't figured out how to tell people I need to be alone. Having to drive people to the doctor is very stressful to me. My mom and dad depend on me for this. They don't want anyone else. I don't enjoy driving anymore; I would like for someone to drive me around. I try telling people this and they just laugh at me. I think I should try getting a doctor's excuse. Maybe they will believe that.

I found this page when I did my search and it confirmed my suspicion. I have all the symptoms of heart failure. I kinda knew this from being around family members with this problem. Mine just started at a younger age. I have been researching heart failure and a lot of these symptoms were going on before I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and rapid heart beat. I think I have had problems for at least five years and I've only been taking medication for one year.

I will have to decide which route to go-charity hosipital or paying patient? I hate not having health insurance.


But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Friday, May 14, 2004

Hershey's Kisses



I am a big, big fan of hershey's kisses; are you? I have tried the newest flavor, Filled with Caramel, and I'm hooked again. umm, umm good! The website is full of fun info. If you haven't visited it, do so as soon as you finish reading my post. You will enjoy the great ideas.

I bought an 8' windmill during our vacation. I have wanted one for 15 years and decided this year I will bring one home. It has been put together and now resides in it's special place. I receive deep pleasure when I see it's wheel spinning with the wind. I would love to own a real one able to draw water from a well. While driving through Texas, I saw several that were actually being used for their true purpose. I have the cacti that I wanted to plant around my windmill. As soon as every thing has been planted and my little bit of Texas is all set up I will post a picture of the completed project.



Monday, May 10, 2004

Wow! Changes



I sat down to update my blog and thought I had made a wrong turn on the web highway. haha I haven't blogged in 10 days and it appears a lot of changes have been made. I like the new templates and might be choosing a new one. I have to see how quick my old brain can understand the new blogger steps on posting.

K. and I were on our vacation/road trip. I had lots of fun. I enjoyed being with my hubby 24/7; he was stuck with me and couldn't get away. tee-hee No phones were ringing, no cooking and cleaning, no television for K. to turn on until bed time. I didn't want to come home!!!! When we did get back, I didn't want to tell anyone I was home. After we told everyone, the phone has been ringing ever since.

It has been five years since our last trip and I think we should take one every year. It brings us closer together. It's like K. starts to see us as a couple again. As I see him always and try to get him to understand what I am missing with him. In our every day life he goes to work, comes home--eats, bathes, turns on the tv, sleeps--goes to work again, no communicating. When we take a trip and we spend hours in the vehicle together; it seems that he recognizes me as the woman he chose to marry. Not just someone he sees every day. I feel he remembers we share this journey of life, he is not doing it all alone.

p.s. I lost my first new post and had to do another one after doing a little investigating. Whew!!! my brain deserves a break. :)