Another week of this year and month is over. In four days I had worked forty-six hours so I was given Friday off and I thoroughly enjoyed doing absolutely nothing. It has been a wonderful three day weekend.

My son's court day isn't until June. I don't know if he has learnt anything from his experience behind bars. I feel he has been humbled but I don't know if that will be enough to bring about a change in his life. I have worried about him all his life.

I still haven't told my family. So far no one else has heard and spread the word. I don't want to listen to criticism. If you haven't had a child that uses drugs you do not understand what a parent feels. We are going through enough without having to try to close our mind and heart to unnecessary words. We already know what our flesh and blood is stupidly doing to himself and yes we know it affects more than just him; you don't have to express it out loud, just be there to offer comfort and strength and encouragement.

Thanks to everyone for their words of encouragement. I never thought of it quite the way ya'll expressed it. I felt strengthened after reading your comments.

Tomorrow my dad will be 79 years old. He has been doing so much for me since K died. Both mom and dad are not in good health. I tell him it isn't necessary to do the things he does; but usually when I come home from work, I can tell he has been by the house because I will find some task that has been none.

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Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for He is faithful that promised;)
Hebrew 10:23

I don't know what to say about the heartache that I am facing now. It is the one of the things a mother prays she never will have to go through. My youngest son is in jail and in all probabilities will serve time in prison. He was arrested on drug charges and I won't go into detail; it is heartbreaking and embarrassing just saying that he is in jail.

I tried to get him out with a property bond; unfortunately my property isn't valuable enough and also they told me I haven't went through succession to put the property in my name only. Another detail that I haven't had done. Running around trying to get a handle on this mess, is what I have been doing during my three day weekend.

I haven't forgotten to praise God for the Resurrection of Christ. He is upper most in my mind and heart. I don't understand why I have to have so much pain in my life. I love the Lord and I know it is not for me to understand; to just believe, but it is so hard.

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Then the same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled for fear of the Jews came Jesus and stood in the midst, and saith unto them, Peace be unto you.
St. John 20:19


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He Lives


I serve a risen Saviour,
He's in the world today;
I know that He is living,
Whatever men may say;
I see His hand of mercy,
I hear His voice of cheer,
And just the time I need Him
He's always near.

In all the world around me
I see His loving care,
And tho my heart grows weary
I never will despair;
I know that He is leading
Thro' all the stormy blast,
The day of His appearing
Will come at last.

Rejoice, rejoice, O Christian,
Lift up your voice and sing
Eternal hallelujahs
To Jesus Christ the King!
The hope of all who seek Him,
The help of all who find,
None other is so loving,
So good and kind.

Chorus:

He lives, He lives, Christ Jesus lives
today!
He walks with me and He talks with me
Along life's narrow way.
He lives, He live, salvation to impart!
You ask me how I know He lives:
He lives within my heart.

Alfred H. Ackley

I have been sick this weekend with diarrhea. Another virus has been going around the daycare. On top of that I have been tired. Friday I actually got off work at two. I was so excited. I came home, fixed me something to eat, put a movie in the dvd player, sat in my favorite chair and in a few minutes was fast asleep. I seem to be doing this a lot. Last week I fell asleep holding a cup of tea. Luckily, I woke up just as the cup was beginning to tip.

I know one thing I have not been doing correctly is eating like the dietitian instructed me. I am back to eating once a day. If I eat more than once it is usually the forbidden junk food. That is probably part of why I am so tired most of the time.

Other things are happening with my health. My hair is falling out bad, I am losing strength in my legs, my mind is confused. These are things that happened before I had the tumor removed. I am having trouble concentrating too. This is showing up with my driving. I have had so many close calls with almost forgetting to stop at stop signs and checking for on coming traffic before I make a turn. I am really scared. Yesterday, I did make a left turn without stopping; praise God there were no cars coming.

I told the director at the daycare that I would not be able to work mornings and evenings after this coming week. The only reason I am doing it this week is because we will be closed for good Friday and I won't get paid for this holiday because I am still considered a part time worker. I will only have thirty hours this week.

Last weekend my refrigerator quick working and I lost everything in it and the freezer. My dad and his cousin was able to get it back to working so I didn't have to replace it. I worry all the time about things needing fixing or replacing.

Thank you so much for the prayer, granny's daughter. It is now included in my prayers. I am glad ya'll are thinking of me.

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Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary: and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31